vessel leaking

Shortly before I went totally crazy and was put in the loony bin I had a pretty intense spiritual experience. I was living with my folks big greenhouse like house (many large windows) in Lafayette. My folk were out of town and I was losing my mind. A small bird flew into one of the large windows and broke it's beak. I heard it and tried to help it but I didn't know what to do. I tried to nurse it back to heath. It was awful to see the little thing suffer so bad. I obsessed on trying to help it. I was talking to it. I fed it for awhile and kept it in a shoe box hoping that it would be alright. I started identifying with it too much. At that time I had run into and been shattered by my own invisible glass wall. I was putting myself further into a anthropomorphic spin. Where I ended and the bird began, began to blur. It was scary. I should have taken a shovel and put the bird out of it's misery but I was too confused, crazy and cowardly at the time.